*continues song in head*



Yeah..that's pretty much it....

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But in all seriousness, it is now May! And as much as I've totally been updating journals with actual content...I haven't!!

Again, got this general feeling of "holidays" whizzing by like nothing--even though this day totally meant something for me in the past! Don't even really remember what I did during the past 3 May/Lei Days or so....and that's just kinda sad--I'm not gonna lie.

Would've put more down than a few words and a disgruntled rant here and there, but I've really been busy (and simply not in the mood to write anything), soooo~

Life has happened, it shall continue to happen, and all I can really do is go with the flow and make the best out of what has been thrown my way. One of the biggest things that occasionally plagues my mind is where I'm headed with my life, and as far as I can tell, I'm doing pretty well. Money remains to be an issue, but I'm confident that I won't be TOO in debt when this whole school thing blows over.

And I've just got a summer session (or two) and another year to worry about--then it's off to "better and brighter" things!!







Excuse me for my lack of enthusiasm--my life revolves around several different things, apparently, so I've been playing a balancing game with everything. It's not that I'm upset or anything (as should be noted by my journal mood), but I've been having these really deep thoughts lately (DEEP....THOUGHTS.....), and they can pretty much be summed up as me trying to figure out how I can better myself as an individual and a part of this society (and the many other social groups I am involved with).

Some big things are my growing awareness of my weakness--my procrastination "skills", my tendency towards idleness, my apparent need to rant/rave/b*tch/moan/groan/complain about things which are totally solve-able so long as I look for said solutions and actually try to do something about it--a lot of the usual stuff. I feel that I've got a lot more room for growth, but I seem to be hindering myself in various different ways, and I just wish I could be more active and gung-ho about certain things....

Alas and alack--this is just how life is, I guess. My current ness towards life in general makes me think back on how I was seriously considering transferring over to UH, but then I'm reminded of how awesome my current university is (no matter how much more expensive), and I chillax.

Asides from all my other issues, a lack of time to do stuff is one of the biggest ones for me--I like hanging out with people from my school, but that cuts into time to hang out with people from the other school. It sucks (a lot), yet I feel that I put in a lot of effort towards my relationships and that I'm doing a pretty damn-good job of it.

Hopefully, as time wears on, I'll have things more put together in my mind, heart, and soul. Thank God all I really have to deal with are a few assignments and some finals--I'd be a little more upset if I had to deal with anything more~

Enjoy life, kiddies, whilst you can--growing up kinda sucks monkey brains~